Sunday, March 27, 2011

Tomorrow's a new day, with no mistakes

Tonight my heart broke a little and I'm feeling a mixture of emotions. One of my closest friends has had a painful experience. I have been where she's at and know that no matter how much I try to be there, its going to take time to heal wounds. When you're close with someone you feel a little of what they're feeling. You can't help but take on some of those emotions, and feel indignation on their behalf, sadness and wanting to comfort as much as you can. My friend is a beautiful person, and I know she'll be just fine. Its just hard right now.

Tonight Daniel and I finished all our Australian paperwork. We're sending it to the Australian Immigration Dept tomorrow. I have such mixed feelings. I feel very emotional about it all. I don't want to leave my friends and the people I love here. I can't imagine my day to day life without certain people in it. But at the same time I'm ready to be back in Australia. I can hardly imagine what it will be like to be home again. I'm glad that I lived here making the most of this experience. I feel like I had a few moments of homesickness, but they were just a few moments compared to the actual amount of time I have spent here. We've had some wonderful times here. I feel that all in all I took what I could and ran with it. Its my intent to make the next six months here really count. To love it, and enjoy it thoroughly. To leave with a bang. By the time we leave I'll have lived here 5 years. Thats a big part of my life, and it will always be with me. A small part of me is just a little (only a little!) Californian ;) Although I wouldn't freely admit that in person (only on the internet!).

Despite my friend's sadness, I had the most lovely day with her and other friends. We babysat for a friend and had an awesome time with their son, a wonderful child with an interesting and lively personality. I thoroughly enjoyed the afternoon we had with him. What a great day.

2 comments:

itsjustmedaringtodream said...

Aww, my fellow Californian is going back down under! I am happy for you sincerely because you have an experience most never get: to live in a foreign country and experience life anew. You'll have to come up with another name for you blog - but dont stop blogging ok (I will read you in Australia too! *smile*)

About your friend - I am a big empathizer too. I feel what my friends feel. Its just a very strong love and relationship - I get it. Continue to be there for her for support. Be a listening ear and a shoulder to cry on. Time heals all wounds..I am sending positive vibes your way for he!

vintageglammz said...

Thanks for your comment on my blog. Gosh, we are very similar in terms of being picky with food!
Welcome back to Australia :-)
As for your friend, sometimes, all you can do is be there. It's hard, but i'm sure she'll get through it with your support.