Friday, January 22, 2010

Home

I think since my sweet aussie friend Anna left I've been feeling homesick again. Argh! I though I had that little monster type feeling conquered once and for all. 3 years later and its still a little inward struggle. Still, I try to spin my thoughts around to more positive ones... eg. how awesome it is to get to live in and really experience another country for a solid amount of time! But as you well know, we all get our moments in life:) There are many things I feel grateful about, and I like to look at the bigger picture and think of all the freedoms (among other things) that I have in life. When I get those nasty little negative feelings (this sounds cheesy probably) but I like to give myself a slap in the face with a dose of **perspective**. I think about women in other countries (ie. the Middle East) where they don't have the same freedoms we do in western cultures. I think to myself how grateful I am to live in the US. I'm naturally such an independent woman, and can't imagine the daily inner struggle if I lived in a country which offered less freedom. I think about the job I have, which I love. I think about what I've learnt about myself here - and how going through something that feels a little tough can really build your character. Thoughts like that make me smile and feel happy for everything. When I get the homesick feeling I almost scoff at myself and think "come on Jones, is it really that bad?". I make myself get over it.

My 3rd year wedding anniversary is coming up in a couple of months, and husband and I were talking about what to do this year. We decided "no presents" this year, but that we'd each plan a day devoted to the other person. I'm quite excited about this, and think it will be lovely to give such a gift full of such thought. I've already planned some things mentally, but can't say just now, just in case my husband reads my humble little blog :)

Its been raining and stormy all week long. I love it. We went walking in the rain on the weekend. Some days at lunch I have been sitting and just watching the rain. Rain is such a novelty here. Its so refreshing having some.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

what's funny is that i feel home sick in this big exciting city. i also think that's because your not around. missing you my scrubber friend.

Its Just Me - Daring to Dream said...

Awww, I was hoping that you were warming up to loving SD more and more. But I realize, home is a place in your heart, a memory that you carry forever and when they come into your present CA life, you get homesick. I feel the same way when I see my friends from Nashville. I miss it. I hope as time progresses, that you miss it less and less, but always appreciate all the nuances that make it feel like "home".

Its Just Me - Daring to Dream said...

Oh, and happy 3rd Anniversary~ Hubby and I too just celebrated our 3rd!