Fruit Flushing almost done!

So this afternoon is the last leg of my fruit flush. I have probably lost a few pounds, but more importantly flushed out all the junk food I ate last week. Today was tough – especially last night and this morning. I kept waking up last night hungry – and at 3am thought “this is stupid, just have a granola bar”. So I did. Totally not part of the cleanse – oh well. I’ve done well today though. Horribly hungry this morning, which has eased off this afternoon. I’m not feeling hungry at all – not counting down the next hour until my next piece of fruit - I will detail how successful it was tomorrow morning…
Watch this space.

Budgeting

So we went through our budget last night. Kazaah! It was horrible. I spend too much on the following:-

a) Clothes
b) Facials/Hair/Pedicures-Manicures/Personal Care items (ie. Eye creams!)
c) Groceries/Eating Out

These are the things I need to cut back on. I felt really depressed after looking at our budget. Here we are, living in an apartment, with one car… we have a good income – and are barely saving. We have things we want to do – and doing them means cutting back on things that aren’t necessities. I know I buy way too many clothes – and spend a lot on personal care. I can still have those things – but on a budget.

We are planning on living in a foreign country at some point – and travelling around it before we move home. To accomplish that, I really need to reign in my spending – which is bordering ridiculous. Travelling overseas is something I really want to do with my husband – especially while we’re so young. I’d hate to think my spending got in the way of that. So from this month its back on a budget.

I wasn’t this bad with spending living in Australia. I think living in California – a place where people have everything – and if not – it goes on credit cards… it affects you. You get a nonchalant attitude about spending. You start to want to have it all. Everyone else around you does. But we don’t want the debt that goes along with it.

Today is day 2 of the fruit flush. Its going really well! I’m feeling great…. Great albeit hungry! But I’m glad I’m doing this for my body. Its something I’ve been wanting to do for forever – and procrastinated on.

Fruit Flush

I decided to do a cleanse. There are so many different ones out there. I had checked out the Lemonade Master Cleanse – which lasts for 7 days (or 10 days?) – there is no way I can do that. Small steps! I ate a lot of junk food on the weekend and am feeling a little blah – and the jeans are a little tight;) I don’t have caffeine at all as it is – so I’m thinking I should be fine on this cleanse – and not experience the headaches my colleagues have been experiencing.

The cleanse is the 3 day Fruit Flush cleanse by Jay Robb. My colleague did the cleanse a couple of weeks ago, and he felt pretty good after it. His wife also did it (and lost 8Lb!). I don’t expect to lose that amount, which is fine. But I’d mostly like to feel energetic after it, and feel better within.

So today I am on the shakes. 3 days isn’t long… she’ll be right… ;)

Other things I want to do...

Trek to see the Great Wall of China

Visit France with my husband

Live in New York for a couple of months, really experience the city

TBC

More thoughts on my life as it stands

I have been thinking recently about the things I really want to do in my life – day to day, and as a goal. Last night I had a dream about Australia. I was staying at a good friend’s house and hanging out with them… then I was back in America. The dream felt so real to me, and today I felt at odds. Just that… at odds, and wishing more than anything that I was in Australia, in a leafy but warm suburb, feeling at home.

Sometimes I feel like I waste too many minutes in my day watching the clock tick by until it gets to 5pm. I’m at work 5 days a week. How many minutes and hours is that wishing I were elsewhere, doing something else, being somewhere else. It’s the thing I hate the most: wasting precious moments in my life. I know not every moment is going to be saturated with contentment, but I would like to feel fulfilled and like I’m doing what I enjoy. I have a brilliant job, I really do, don’t get me wrong. I think I have the nicest boss possible. A team I sincerely enjoy working with. I’m good at what I want to do. But this isn’t my dream. I’m still figuring it out I think. Some kids have it figured out in their early 20’s. I’m between my mid to late 20’s and still clueless as to what my dream is. I know the things I love to do. I love being at the beach, sitting under an umbrella and reading a book. Splashing about in clear water on a hot day. Bushwalking, bikeriding. Playing the piano – which I should do more of. Thrift shopping. Living in a big beautiful city close to the water and taking in the personality of my surroundings while drinking a cup of coffee (decaf that!). Being with my friends and bantering. Watching old 30’s and 40’s movies. I do some of these things to an extent, but have been feeling less fulfilled recently.

I love my husband and we have a great relationship, although very little in common besides our beliefs and our love of travelling. Debt ties you down with no way out, meaning the only option is to “do what you can”. I shouldn’t complain really. This isn’t a complaining post. But rather trying to figure my thoughts out. Where I’m at. A good friend of mine here who is recently in her 40’s said she used to look forward to her 30’s thinking she would have it all figured out. But now… she is really enjoying her 40’s, saying she was still insecure and working it all out in her 30’s. Maybe 40 is the new 30 then.

Gladiators yet again

I'm loving this image taken by the The Sartorialist. It totally inspires me:-




Totally beautiful - and those gladiators are hot. I'm hoping to create a similar look.

Thinking Time

I’m feeling inspired at the moment in many ways. I had a great last few days, which got me thinking a lot about my life, who I am as a person. I think I get lazy. I know what makes me happy, what is right and yet I work away, carry on with routine and let myself ignore things. But I’m afraid of wasting years not being true to myself and my beliefs. I think we go through transition years where we are figuring it all out. Right when I think I know myself… a couple of years pass and I feel like I’m starting all over again. I don't want to look back at "wasted years" - spent figuring out what I like/want when I could have just been doing it. Some people accomplish more in 20 years than some people do in a lifetime. I guess I want to be one of those people (not the latter!).

One thing I know is how much I appreciate my lifelong true friends I’ve had for years. The meaningful friendships that enrich your lives. I get tired of constantly meeting people and having to start all over again.

I have a friend living here at the moment who is also Australian. We have so much fun paying each other out and also that we understand each others ways, even though we have really only known each other a short time.

Here’s what I’m listening to at the Moment:-

The Whitsundays
Zooey Deschanel & M.Ward
Wolftron
Beirut

What I’m reading: Women in Love by DH. Lawrence and Corellis Mandolin.

I ended up sending back the Urban Outfitters skirt. The high waisted skirts don’t seem to suit my figure. It was such a cute skirt, but that’s ok. Now I’m on the lookout for a pair of flat gladiators for everday wear. I’ll post some pics up soon.